Nosy

I realised that my facebook page isn't enough for me when I was going through every single possible friend match for about two hours. You know the ones you have this and that many friends in common with. ''People you might know'' I think it's called. I didn't know one single person but I still went through them all to see if I recognised anyone. And I recognised people which I then clicked onto their facebook pages to see if they had any pictures that I could sneak thorugh to see what they were up to. Yes, I guess I could be called a facebook stalker. Sometimes I panic and think that these people may be able to see me sneaking and slither over their holiday pics. I wouldn't want to admit that I am quite nosy and haven't got a lot to do so thats what I do on my sparetime.

And I keep making comments on pictures of people I haven't seen or spoke to for more than 10 years. Like I am looking for a virtual cyber friendship. Or maybe just a need of being seen and expressing myself so that other people can see it. ''Hello!!! Look at me! I'm here, over here.'' Like a 2-year old wanting the whole world to focus on them.

And I keep using google to google old friends names......just to see what they are up to. And to see if they've made success. If they have I feel soooo happy for them......and very very jealous because I haven't. I'm like a secret nosy old lady. Except I'm not very old.

Everyone seems to be on facebook so if I find someone on google who has got a really good job or made a career or live on a nice adress I just go onto facebook and search for the person to see how they look like. Its so childish of me but if that very successful person looks very much older than their age I feel triumphating and a smug smile is making its way over my lips. I know, thats so bad and something you do when you are 15 and checking up on your new boyfreinds ex-girlfriends and realising that they are much fatter/uglier/ less fashionable than you. But I am 31 and doing it.

So thats when I realised I have to start doing something else with my sparetime. I started this blog today. So hopefully I wont sneak around peoples facebook pages anymore. And just for your information; I will not be taking any pictures of my daily outfits or other snazzy things to publish on my blog as I cannot stand them types of blogs. And also, I know my outfits wouldn't make anyone jealous so that might be another reason for not publishing any pics. ahahahaaa.

And, ehm, I am also a mum. .